https://moseshng.wordpress.com/2022/11/06/its-november-already/ [[Blog Index]] # It's November already. Hey, How time flies passed so quickly, It is already November. What have I done in my personal life in the last two months since I left my full-time job?! How have I used my newfound free time? What will be my plans for the next couple of months? ## Let's see (*referring to my journal entries). In September, I went to Bangkok and Phuket for two weeks. (I missed the trip). Cognitively/Mentally, I have been reading and tidying my notes. I started a few books on psychopathology, slow fix, but doesn't finish reading them. I watched Thai Cave Rescue on Netflix. Hooked by Thai Music - Three Man Down on Spotify. Listened to some audiobooks. I watched interviews and lectures by Lee Kuan Yew, and I think I will adopt the virtue of "excellence" to continue to improve myself. At the end of October, I started watching more youtube about China-US relations, international relations, and foreign policy. Lectures by Bilahari Kausikan., international relations, and foreign policy. Physically, You know, I haven't gotten COVID-19 yet. I started swimming on 27 Sep 2022; I go to the public pool for laps (50mins x 16 laps) twice a week. So far, been there for eight sessions already. At home, I am also doing callisthenics training. I also started practising yoga to be more flexible by following the Down Dog App. I am pretty happy with my consistency. ## What's next? Mmmm, I don't feel satisfied/fulfilled at this point. (A friend jokingly told me I should accept that I will not be happy la. Is it just human nature to always look for things to be unhappy about?) I think I got an existential crisis; I am reaching 40 this year and am questioning what I am or have been doing. I feel restless and irritable and ask whether there must be more than this. I feel like I am just coasting along... ## The right amount of stress and tension Perhaps we need the right balance of work, not too much or too little. When working full-time, I was stressed and tired, and I didn't have much time for myself and my social life. Now that I have more time, my mind becomes distracted... brain fog.. my attention goes everywhere. Sometimes I feel like I haven't done anything, and half a day is gone. I am not happy with that situation. I need to get out of this rut; I need to feel meaningfully engaged with life. However, as I go through this transitional period, I will learn to adapt and fill up my time with something engaging and meaningful. I do not want to go back to work full-time yet; perhaps there could be something more interesting to explore. I am open to new opportunities. ## The only limitation is my belief. I am slowly learning this principle; our mind rules our body. Whatever we believe, that is our reality as well. I have become more mindful of watching and guarding my mind, and I do not allow thoughts that do not "nourish" me to get me. I believe exciting opportunities await me as I prepare myself for them! I will update you again. Cheers Moses