[[18-06-2022]] - Related to the practice of [[20220603 What I am thankful for]] This is a practice about self-acknowledgement, validation and affirmation. # Self Acknowledgement, Validation and Affirmation. I breathe in, and i sense and connect with my body. I see myself. I acknowledge my presence. Breathing in... i am aware of my body, the weight of my body.. the position of my body..I acknowledge that i exist here on earth at this time. I acknowledge my physical presence. I acknowledge my relational presence, i am a son to my parents.. and elder brother to my sibling.. an uncle.. i am friend to many people.. i am a colleague, a helper.. I acknowledge that i have made difference to my patients' lives, to the caregivers, i have alleviate some suffering. I have made difference to my family members. I have been a blessings to many people. My emotions are valid. My thoughts are valid. My feelings are valid. They may come and go, they may web and flow, but they are my feelings, my thoughts, and emotions. Nevertheless, they are valid.. my experiences, what i have gone through are valid.. and i will not discount them. I will not dismiss my own feelings and thought. I value and cherish them, because only i feel the way i feel.. and think the way i think.. I am uniquely me. "**I feel lonely, and unknown. One day, no one will remember or miss me.. in the end, it makes no difference if i existed**" I acknowledge that, it is true! That's the reality. In just 50 years, i think no one will remember me. However, i am living and exist right now, and my words and deeds makes a difference, like a pebble that i drop in the river, they will be ripple effects... and life is interconnected, and even when i am not physically present anymore, i believe my effects will be around. If not, then it doesn't matter, because i will be in heaven. And i just have to accept this cruel reality. Make the most out of this short fleeting existent #existential #life I acknowledge myself for the job well done in the last 12 years. I acknowledge myself for the efforts, the initiatives, the learnings, the times when i didn't give up, but continue to learn and grow, to give of myself, above and beyond what is needed on the job. I acknowledge for working over time for the job. I acknowledge for the kindness, and generosities I have shown to the clients, colleagues at work. Taking care of the younger colleagues. I acknowledge myself for being helpful, helping even people not in the department, like helping Prof Chee with his book, and helping him with technology issues. I am a community builder on Workplace, creating digital community to connect people together. The use of technology to attempt to make work life easier. I acknowledge my many talents.. drawing, interest to learn, ability to connect ideas, and make people feel comfortable, and building rapport. I acknowledge my self simply for being me! At this very moment, i exist, and because i exist, i can make a difference, and help others. That's meaningful. Not for the money, for wealth, all these i can't take away.. But if i can help someone to feel abit "Freer", "to be out of bondage", to be "out of Egypt", "to bloom", then they can go further then me,.. they can make differences in others' lives. I think i am a guide, that's my destiny. Ok. I don't want to be grandiose here, to think that i am like the prophet Moses.. ---- 14:45 Hmm feeling strong negative emotions.. i think not good to keep focusing, and analysing it. I shall simply sit still and breathe. Mindfulness. --- 20:29 Gave my mother massage just now. Tomorrow massage father. Now, in my room, going to watch a show and then sleep.